*smacks self*

Last night after I wrote that blog about how I wanted to be more strict with myself, I ended up having a bowl of popcorn (hence the title of this blog). I think it's important to share this with my readers because I post alot of my successes and I haven't had too many serious fallbacks until this week... but I just want you to all know that it's not all easy. There are times that I break and eat something I shouldn't... or don't do as well at the gym... no one's perfect. I'm trying my best though.

Today I haven't had anything bad and I worked out longer than I normally do on the elliptical machines. I know I need to make up for what I've been doing the last week or so and I really want to reach my goal. As someone put it to me last night "there's always a chance to eat popcorn AFTER you reach your goal... it's not like you'll never have it again.." just not until I get where I want to be.

Part of what caused me to work out longer today was me reading one of my textbooks while on the elliptical machines and having music so I was never fully focused on the thoughts 'my legs are starting to hurt,' 'I'm tired' and whatnot. I also accidently reset the machine half way through my routine :(. But it gave me a chance to keep going (longer than I should - there's a 30 minute time limit on the machines but there was no line up and free machines today so I figured it wouldn't be too big of a deal). I know I burned 307.2 calories on the second portion of my workout and on the first half my guess is that I had burnt about 150... so say around 450 calories for my workout today. I didn't push myself to go really fast - my pace stayed at about 120 strokes per minute regardless of whether or not the incline or the resistance was increased so the lower resistance gave me a bit of a chance to catch my breath for the harder sections where it was back up.

Tomorrow is going to be the first day that I go to the gym on the weekend as part of my regular schedule. I'm upping my gym days to every day except sundays... so that in case I need to take off a day for school I can do so and so that I get even closer to my goal sooner.

I want to reach my goal so badly - not only for myself, but for my loved ones too. I'm not going to give up. Yes, I've had a bit of a rough patch for the past week or so but I'm getting myself back on track and I will keep this up.